The now world-renowned academic, J. Peterson discusses various subjects of social & individual behavior mentioned in his latest bestseller, with actor, author, rockstar, and leftwing U.K. activist R. Brand.
‘A Freestyle for the Free’
…And then a sizzle coupled with a faint ringing, which meant that I was, at least for the moment, still alive.
Now; sprawled out on the dust coated cement, and unsure exactly how I had gotten here, I instinctively drew my hands from my still crippled eyes.
Initially an attempt to gain any grasp whatsoever of the unfolding scene around my shaking, neutralized body through means of the ears was a failure, prevented by the still persistent ringing deep inside my skull.
In that moment I realized that the senses which, I, under usual circumstances rely upon in gauging a situation, were currently compromised.
Then, very cautiously, I tried to open up just a sliver of sight. The idea proved a bit rushed, as a foggy white film greeted me. I closed them once more for a while, as the ringing in my ears slowly subsided.
Even with my ears still largely unusable, I realized very quickly that I was not alone in that damp, dark room.
…very quickly I realized my previously accessed fears, were in fact my present reality.
They were here.
They had come for me…
There is a war raging, somewhere which is not near you; as well as likely quite far from anyone, that you actually even know.
It is a conflict between neighbors, even brothers in some cases.
One which is currently in its fifth year. Five years it’s been, since the ancient land plunged into turmoil, and it’s ancient scars, were gruesomely torn, wide-open once more.
I have watched it, for those five years. In that span of time, I have seen many things, some cruel, some almost demonic…evil things, for lack of any better definition.
We all watched in fact…
…from afar, and although at times, it may have peeked our interest a bit, in reality, at least if we’re being honest; we tuned in, largely due to curiosity, rather than any sort of legitimate humanitarian concern.
Yet there it is; still.
By now, I’m quite sure to stand correct, when acknowledging the fact that, most, if not all of us; had believed that it would have ended by now…
Yet here we are; it didn’t…
Years ago, this civil war began, in a time of violent popular uprisings, across the entire region. The protests here, in the country of discussion, were, initially at least, peaceful; for the most part.
Soon, the images on western media coverage of the events, where getting more&more unsettling to watch.
Syria’s opposition movement, which had formed through a coalition of various groups from across the social, as well as ideological spectrum; had, as many other, formerly non-violent anti-government revolts across the region, been battered by a series of overly harsh, and in many cases deadly, crackdowns.
Marches were met with murder, as the most recent member of the long established Assad political dynasty, which had ruled the country for nearly forty years, using the brutal suppression of it’s dissidents, to solidify a hold on power, on various occasions prior to Syria’s current rebellion; Bashar Al-Assad, had only the precedents set by his father’s own struggle with armed revolt to guide him.
A doctor, educated in London, as well as a resident of the undeniably fully Western oriented city; Bashar was catapulted into the seat of power after his brother, which had been chosen and groomed, essentially as his father’s successor to the throne, was killed in a deadly car accident. The doctor from London, we might reasonably speculate, must have been quite shocked in his initial entrance into power, and understandably so…
One which, all things considered, he, had never actually asked for, nor honestly expected.
Yet, there it was; power.
The current spearhead in Syria’s established government, seems, in many ways, not exactly the strongman type; meek, soft-spoken, and harboring the kind of demeanor, typical of a studious intellectual, not a hated dictator.
A visage in direct contrast, to that portrayed in his father’s character before him.
In truth, not all is black and white; especially in the middle-east.
Bashar al-Assad, was, believe it or not, viewed by the West, as a progressive, after first taking the reigns of power, and hailed as the man to implement a new wave of reforms, which would usher in a modern, more democratic Syria.
In fact, he nearly did…
Whether it was loosening the harsh restrictions on the internet, or incorporating Syria’s economy into the global market; for a time, Bashar al-Assad, it seemed at least, was on the right track.
Yet there it was; a growing opposition…
[TO BE CONTINUED…]
Much, if not most, of the information, which,you are fed systematically, day by day, tweet by tweet, on Facebook, Youtube, and on your campus, your street-corner, in the media, and even from within the confines of knowledge, provided to you via any given choice of daily news outlet; is either highly opinionated, or, simply pure opinion. That, is the truth, whether you like it, or admit this to be the reality, is in fact utterly irrelevant in the matter…
That said; the validity of the following passages, is for you to judge through your own self-justifiable convictions, being the child of my own personal observations, and consequent arrival at the various conclusions, relating to the subject at hand. The concepts involved, belong to a quite broad spectrum of topics, ranging in their importance, at least in regards to your own minuscule place in this vast world of ours.
These are subjects analyzed through my own understanding, which in my personal opinion, at least honestly attempts to remain as ‘unbiased’ as humanly possible. Unfortunately, as is the case, in, well, each and every single one of us, there is undeniably an element of unintentional, as well as uncontrollable, bias, stemming from the churning undercurrents of the dark sea beneath our conscious mind. Perhaps, dear reader, you can let me know if you encounter anything of the sort, and, perhaps I may actually give a fuck about your observations;
In any case; I guess we may proceed at this point.
Well then, I mean, where exactly might one thrust the blade first, whilst given such a grand bounty of diverse cultural, geo-political, socio-economic, or even militarily based, topics and issues, influencing the planet which we inhabit today.
Then again we can’t simply just strike at the jugular first; what’d be the fun, or point in that now?
Especially, given the fact that, realistically I don’t honestly even really know, where it is exactly, that this ‘jugular’ topic lies.
…You’ll just have to find out in my next Entry, as that last beer, now sitting in empty submission at the edge of my screen, has swayed me against any further use of my conflicted, tired mind, at long last. In addition to which, it’s lovely neighbor, a cheeky little joint, rolled not too long ago with care, by my own hand; has been begging for a chance to ‘spark-up’ a conversation with me.
Until next time then dear open-minded reader, and in the mean time, think beyond the boundaries which have been placed before you, think out loud if that’s what it takes to break them down like a wall in Berlin, contemplate EVERYTHING, and never, NEVER, surrender your deepest convictions to the restrictive, oppressive fools fighting to gain control of your very soul, every day. I will be with you, now, and in those times I have mentioned in the preceding sentence, so remember my words, let them echo within the corridors of your mind, when the time comes, in your own voice, through the force of your own will. I trust it’s stronger than you believe.
For ‘doubt’, dear friends; is only as strong as you let it be, and only exists, if you believe in it…
It was a late autumn night, and though a harvest should have been; it was not. There were no bushels of wheat, no fruits to gather, and no barrels of barley in this year’s yield. Barrels of blood had taken the place of yesteryear’s crop. It was late autumn, and all but anything was not well.
The beast had come to ravage all that the boy; man, knew.
It’s hunger; the flesh of his kin, and all which he had held dear. Life itself, was his own dear mother’s toll to pay, as well as his father’s, his sisters, and many more of his family’s price for their faith.
There was beauty beyond comprehension in this land he called home, before the beast had come to ravage their lands. Peace, happiness, and prosperity…
Alas, as if a warm dream, gone.
Now it was no more.
There were no compromises with the beast, no negotiations unless you brought your guns.
It was usually simply fight, or die.
If only, that were the case, all of the time. Yet many in his village, including himself, had been forced to take yet another alternative. Fight, or watch the desecration of your mother’s, your sister’s, even your own wife’s body.
This completely inexplicable form of torture, was then met with various others. However, after the preceding method had been undertaken, anything else was merely child’s play in comparison. Then again there were no children left here. Only once innocent souls, drenched in the blood of their mothers, turned to old men, at the age of five, six.
If hell had a name on earth…it was this.
He had initially resisted the others call to arms, he had tried to reason with them.
“They are not savages, many live around us, in villages that have never raised a hand in anger towards ours.”
“They are our neighbors, we know them, and they know us. We have not wronged them, they are our friends and they would not come for blood, they have no reason!”
As he stared out across the darkened hills, cold and bare; he sighed, and loosened his sweaty hands from the barrel of his AK-47.
A word which tore through his broken mind again, and again, and again; into insanity.
What had they done that could have resulted in such demonic hatred.
Was it the bread, which his good-hearted ol’mother baked for the children of the grocer in the next village over?
Was it the way in which we had plowed the fields? Fields, which all of us once shared; or the way we believed them to be the same as us, human beings with a soul, our friends, even family through marriage in some cases?
These reasons ultimately mattered little now, and maybe had always. The beast had come hungry, and as it seemed, had yet not had its fill. Apparently the flesh of his family, and countless others, had not yet been enough to satisfy the demon’s appetite.
He remembered waking up to find the mark which was used by those around his village to signify those of his faith; painted red on his front door, as well as most of his neighbors. He had at that time not understood it’s meaning…now it was clear.
Pigs for the slaughter.
He had only come to terms after watching the “things”; terrible things, which they had done to his mother and his sisters, before executing his father. He had only come to terms with his own beast then.
Now; he had seen evil, and it had tasted him, a he had yet to taste it. He would avenge the blood of his fallen kin. He would satisfy the beast’s appetite with its own flesh.
The day prior, had been a savage day.
After castrating three men with the dullest blade he could find, the boy was sent up to the hills to recuperate, and watch the enemy around his village. This was not his own wish, as his dull blade yet had some “cut” left in it.
Orders, were orders, however.
He watched in silence, as a herd of sheep marched untended, on a stretch on low-land to his right. Sheep, pigs, cattle…men. All, meant for the slaughter at the hands of the beast.
One thing was clear to the boy, he would never be weak again.
Even as the enemy, outnumbering his village’s volunteers by what had to be a thousand to one, circled around his family’s land like a pack of hungry wolves, he would never allow himself to give in.
He was ready, almost impatient, to shed these animals blood, in exchange for honor; as were the remaining members of the men down below. In fact, he sometimes even dreamed of, what could only be described as, biblical revenge.
He had long ago accepted his fate, death.
Yet not the style of death perpetrated upon his beloved family.
The death that would avenge the blood of the fallen; with the blood of their murderers.
He had only one reservation in this effort however. Sahdina, his last shred of humanity.
She had always been a part of him; not because she lived across the road from his family for all of his short life, but because she was perfect in every way imaginable. Realistically, if it had not been for the beast’s arrival, she would have been his bride within a few short years.
It was Sahdina which he worried about. It was her life, and not that of his own which still kept his soul from dying somewhere, out on those darkened, lifeless hills. Her life was the exception to his hatred of the world itself; of life.
His mind drifted yet again, to what seemed like a pleasant dream, the life he had been witness to before all of this; before the beast had swallowed everything but his haunting memories.
He thought of the fresh fish at Christmastime, he smelled his mother’s coat as she caressed his head with loving hands. He wept, and he screamed into his dirty jacket to keep quiet, and punched the dirt with all his might.
Then he sank down like a rock in a deep, dark well…and he slept like one too.
Lights flickered into his eyes, and the bellowing thunder of the beast’s voice followed…
It had returned; and he had not been witness.
The distant crackle of unexploded shell casings echoed through the valley and up into the hills.
He had not even the chance, nor the will to dust off his rusty, sand coated eyes, before shrieking the sort of sound one only produces upon having his still beating heart torn out of his living body.
The tears streamed from his eyes, and shot off of his dusty dry cheeks, as he sprinted with all of his might down the side of the steep hill, falling several times, then continuing with the conviction of love in his step.
Then he reached his target.
Gone…ashes were all that greeted his return.
The ashes of those which he had delivered to the beast by surrendering to his deafening slumber.
He walked in a slow wobbling waddle, like some drunken goose, completely broken, in a daze of despair and unwillingness to even begin to comprehend the beast’s feast now before him. His slumped to-and-fro like some alien seeing earth for the first time. His eyes wide, his mouth dry; his soul all but dead.
“Where is she!?”
He yelled at the top of his lungs.
Had they taken her as a slave of pleasure!?
He knew then that she had not escaped, that she had either been forced into using her body to please the beast in a living hell of slavery and torture; or, that she was dead.
He screamed out a prayer, begging God himself for her honor.
His only wish was that she had died, that she had been slaughtered like an animal upon the beast’s initial assault.
Then came a sound.
Quiet at first, deafened due to his horror; yet soon it was evident.
“Papa, I think it was over here!”
“Wait for me boy, it’s probably one of the non-believers that hasn’t yet went to hell” “It could still have a bit of fight in it, so wait for me boy!”
Before the two looters had even exited his own father’s house, he could already recognize the voices.
Jutting behind a smoking lump of tires he watched; and he waited.
“Papa I don’t hear anything anymore, it’s gone, it ran away!”
“Boy, calm yourself, don’t you worry, he’s here, I can smell these swine ha-ha, oh, don’tchu worry my boy, he’s probably just quiet because it knows we’re coming to send him to hell, where his kind belongs, with the rest of his infidel family!”
The boy’s heart sped up, his hands sweat once more, his grip tightened.
Moments later, the old man was sprawled out across the road, his young son at his side as he gasped. The boy walked over slowly, in silence, with no clear emotions evident upon his face.
The old man’s son screamed as he sprang up and ran towards the older boy that had surely mortally wounded the father.
The boy snapped the butt of his rifle hard against the little child’s jaw. He hit the dirt, only to be violently jerked upwards by the collar, as the “infidel” dragged his small body in the direction of his father, now chocking on his own blood, as a dark-red pool gathered around him.
“You remember me?”
The gunman said calmly.
“Do you remember my mother grocer?”
The old man, unable to conjure up the strength to utter words, simply gurgled blood as tears poured down his leathery, wrinkled face.
“I’m sure your son does grocer…”
Two more lifeless bodies were left amongst the rest.
One an old man, strangled by his own blood, coated in urine.
The other; a little boy, with his head decapitated, and also coated in urine.
Like a ghost the boy roamed from house to house, searching for her, searching for his own soul amongst the rubble and burning flesh, perhaps.
Yet still; nothing.
She had not been found in her family’s home, nor his own family’s home, where his aunt often held long chats with the girl.
Then; he saw her.
Sahdina, her eyes, oh, her eyes, as beautiful in death as they were in life.
Her body twisted and mangled, one leg charred with the skin still melting from the bone, the rest, at least up to her lips, covered in rubble.
He began tearing through the brick and dirt without a moment’s hesitation.
He finally laid her out flat, closed her eyes, and wept for a good while.
…And so; watching her lie there, beautiful as she had always been, in perfect serenity, in peace, he thought to himself; at least she had died with honor.
“Honor”; alas, honor cold not save him, and as the shot rang out in the late autumn night, so too did her name from his lips.
Nevermore would he fight for honor.
Nevermore, oh, nevermore, would he know, the beast named war,
Eternal peace; alongside, other beasts…
They say life is just like rolling the dice…could come up with a set of 6’s, or throw down and find a couple of snake eyes starring back up at you. I guess if you’ve never been to the darker part of town (and I don’t know did I mean that literally?), in jail, or maybe somehow just never got around to playing a fucking game of Risk (*in which case see |^sec.8/article:°5.1|; ; under the heading”Go fuck yourself”) , then maybe I’m wasting my time with that metaphor, and maybe you should go play some fucking Risk already…wait, what was I-ah yes.
So now that we got all of that out of the way; as I was saying, life, they say, is just like rolling the dice…A game, into which, we are each randomely thrust down. Hence we are doomed to that fortune which we are dealt, landing, as do the dice, to play our own individual position. They say that we don’t control the toss which deals us our lot, instead each simply flailing like an insignificant little ant dropped into a glass of water, instinctively trashing its limbs to and fro, desperately trying to fight for a chance to survive. They say we came to the places we’ve been, this place we are now, and the place which we will ultimately arrive at, through riding like a paper plane on the unpredictable winds of “fate”. In simpler terms, we are just observers,unaware of what is to come, or able to influence in any way for that matter, yet destined to live out our preset plan nonetheless. We; you, me,him, her, winners and losers,” somebody” or “nobody”. As if we are all just reading the book of our own existence, flipping through the pages one by one, unaware of what the next shall bring, yet reading on regardless. Our knowledge exyends only as far as the pages before the one which we view currently, hoping that the author, God, has written the story ahead in line with our wants, our needs, individual aspirations, and hopes. Alas, they say, that we are inevitably not the author of the story but instead doomed to live out our days through a predetermined existence, in a preprogrammed world…like rolling the dice.
…I say, dice just isn’t my kinda game.
See in my eyes”they”, are in fact living out this predetermined life simply because “they” are playing the wrong game…
Some in this world go through life playing dice, personally…
I prefer chess.
“My meaning simply is, that whatever I have tried to do in life, I have tried with all my heart to do well; that whatever I have devoted myself to, I have devoted myself to completely; that in great aims and in small, I have always been thoroughly in earnest.”
– Charles Dickens, David Copperfield, Ch. 42
This life of ours is, in the simplest way I can put it; is an unbeatable enigma, regardless of the greatness of the mind, or the strength of heart granted to any man, from Einstein to Aristotle, Alexander to Napolean and so forth. Life is an equation with no answer and not one single predictible trait, filled with factors displaying more randomness then any sort of sensible logic. It is as much a cursed burden, as much as it is undeniably our most incredible, treasured gift from the cosmos. It is comprised of as much bullshit, useless information, and pain…as it is of the most beauty that time and space could infinitely ever muster.
Life is everything and nothing at all, it is me writting this, it is you reading it. It is me getting drunk with my buddies after finishing this, it is you being inspired(for better or worse) to do the same after you finish reading this.
Life is love. Life is hatred beyond comprehension. The only real truth that I have discovered thus far in my sliver of accumulated acquired knowledge through expirience, is that there is no truth to be certain of.
For the truth is my friends, life is simply the unbreakable enigma of any that posess it.